``I want to have a child...'' For a couple, even a simple word can put a lot of pressure on them. We've been married for five years, but we haven't had sex for about three years. When Maiyuki told me that she wanted to have a child, I wondered if she would be able to properly raise a child if she had a child in this situation, as she had just gotten married and was still working half the time. Even though I was approached many times to have sex, I kept refusing. Just when I thought that she had stopped approaching me recently, I saw Maiyuki's smartphone screen... It was an exchange with the man she was having an affair with. This is the result of sitting cross-legged in our relationship as a husband and wife, assuming that he understood me, and leaving me alone... It's my fault. I was making you lonely. What Maiyuki wanted more than a child was my love and warmth. Without realizing this, he kept Maiyuki away for three years. Anger, regret, and pity for myself came over me. I love Maiyuki... I don't want to lose her... I don't want her to be taken away by another man! ! When I found out about my wife's affair, I changed. I made him breakfast, I asked him out on a date, we talked and laughed a lot for the first time in a long while, apologized for my past rudeness, and honestly told him how I was feeling. ``I want to have sex with Maiyuki again.'' Having sex for the first time in three years... nervous, nervous, excited... I felt as if I had had sex for the first time. After all, Maiyuki is the best. I'm no good without Maiyuki...