This work is a record of a play with Misaki Otsuka (pseudonym), an amateur M woman who volunteered to train in the editorial department of SM magazine, which is recruiting models from time to time. From an early age, Misaki was a girl who had a sweet turmoil in the terrible treatment and cruel expressions in anime and manga. As I grew up, I had an M propensity ... and spent my days in agony. I had a lover for the first time in college, but the more I am aware of M propensity, the farther away I am from my normal lover. When she was in her third year of college, she never decided to enroll in SM dating and experienced SM for the first time in her life, and the pain and suffering made her happy and satisfied. "I want you to hit more with a whip ..." I was ashamed to say that at that time. With the beginning of the teacher exam, the busyness made me estranged from contact with the man, and while soliciting the desire to be tied up, he said, "I will be a teacher. I will be a priest. I have an unusual desire. She was dominated by the commandment that "Isn't it permissible to do something that can be fulfilled?" She sealed her M desire and only allowed her to masturbate, imagining herself being tied up and whipped by a stranger. The reason for applying for the SM model was the death of my grandmother. People will die someday. Don't spend your time with your wishes and desires sealed ... that kind of feeling has sprung up in her. I want to experience it deeply. I want to know how much I can endure and how comfortable I am at that time ... If I grow older, my body line will collapse. I want to leave a photo before that happens. I want to see myself in pain and pleasure. And I want people with similar habits to know who they are ... She asked, "Would you like to shoot my SM?" And contacted the editorial department of SM magazine. It would be great if a masochist woman could share with you a cute figure that trembles with joy in the pain of being in love with her from an early age.